jei wants to learn

oh, hello blog!

2011-07-29T02:26:00.000-07:00

oh, hello blog!

hello my dear blog, we meet again. haha its been ages! i've been busy, school, work, other random stuff. of course that would include all the singing groups i've been singing with and all the demanding songs i have to memorize and learn. also tried other networking sites but didnt really work for me (well maybe eventually). lol, i should be studying right now but for a change i decided to just go on the computer and update myself with whats going on (?!!!?!?!?!?!) haha.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2011-01-12T14:06:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

WOW, my last post was way back in August! been pretty busy the last few months. i got a job, school, choir, vocal jazz, cello and all other things goin on and keeping me busy. lol. I also turned 25 last month. yay!

jei and gaile turns 2 months!

2010-08-21T00:41:00.000-07:00

jei and aile turns 2 months!

YAY! thank you Lord!

my love <3

purikura

2010-08-08T02:12:00.000-07:00

purikura

summer bum

2010-06-25T15:09:00.000-07:00

summer bum

ok, its been 2 weeks since school ended. im not takin summer classes since i owe money at school. im tryin to look for a summer job but none so far. but its ok. concerts are also done. i have nothing to memorize and were having a short choir break.

btw i have a girlfriend now, she's super awesome. i love her so much :)

james taylor and carol king concert

2010-05-14T14:58:00.000-07:00

james taylor and carol king concert

last night i was invited to a watch the concert of james taylor and carol king at the hollywood bowl. i really had a great time. we were half an hour late though coz of the traffic and parking stuff. it was a great show though, i just love the classics! yay!

many thanks to Mrs. Eltrevoog, Christina and Yoko! :)

san luis obispo trip

2010-04-28T19:58:00.000-07:00

san luis obispo trip

last weekend i went to san luis obispo together with the glendale college concert singers. it was a fun experience. i rode with markian and jessica. they are really fun to be with. it was such a long drive. it was super fun, i got to meet "new" friends, well ive seen most of them in choir but i dint really get to talk to them. the trip gave me a chance to meet and get to know more of the singers.

soccer

2010-04-28T19:51:00.001-07:00

soccer

i just got home from soccer class. it was fun as always. we played without goal keepers. weird. today i got to see Christina after college choir. totally made my day. she's one of the nicest person ive ever known. oh and she lend me her violin this week. im really havin fun with it, sometimes you never know what you got till its gone. lol its a cliche but thats how i kinda felt with losing my violin. oh well, im just glad that i can still play, im a bit slow though but i could work it out :)

tortue, belette et taupinette

2010-04-22T22:20:00.000-07:00

tortue, belette et taupinette

today was inspiring, or should i say this week. i got an A in french and i got to talk to some of the people who are very important to me. hmm, one thing that really made my day was my tutor Alice gave me a book, a french children's story with pictures! i love it!!!

spring break

2010-04-12T22:11:00.000-07:00

spring break

i was very lazy today but i still went out and did stuff. Anna picked me up and we went to the mall to look for a job. i stayed at barnes and nobles for a while to read while Anna went home already. i stopped by the library on my way home and borrowed 2 books. then me and russiel went grocery shopping.

i really have no special plans this week but i might go to san francisco or OC. but im feelin lazy, i just wanna stay home and read. seriously.

btw, weekend was eventful. it was fun, except that tita mirriam's mom died and they are going to manila sometime this week. its sad. but other than that, i had a blessed weekend. on saturday i got to sing for the bereaved with sole voce, then rehearsal was cut short so we went to the afenir's for dinner, we had baked fish and many more. the batulayans were there too, i got to talk with ate jesa about my "issues"... haha. it was a fun night. we also watched pink panther and around the world in 80 days. we dint finish the 2nd film though since it was getting late and we still have to wake up early for sunday appointment.

then on sunday, we went to four squares church somewhere in the valley. it was such an amazing experience singing in that church, i felt so blessed and the congregation was very welcoming and appreciative. i also enjoyed singing because ate jesa was there so it means more alto sound, and voices are complete :)

later that day i went to Christina's church which turned out to be a four square church too. it was really blessed being there, the young adult group was very nice. everyone were friendly. we watched starwars but me and Christina were talkin half the time were watching the movie. i enjoyed it so much though.

im planning to comeback next sunday. or if i could make it i would go to the saturday night prayer meeting. we'll see :)

le choeur, le football et français

2010-03-31T22:35:00.000-07:00

le choeur, le football et français

today was pretty interesting. my day started like usual. however i wasnt late in class. however i was late in choir rehearsal. just for a few minutes though. i have a feeling that some of the guys from the bass section doesnt like me. or maybe im just imagining things. oh well.

in the afternoon, i went to my soccer class. earlier though i told myself that im gonna stay longer so i could play more. but our session has been shortened because of some issues that happened last week. its funny coz i am usually the first one to leave the class and now that i wanna play more, we cant play more. well, thats life!

but on the good side of it, i got to play a good game today even if its short. i guess im learning and getting better. one of my teammates told me that we had a goal because of me. he was very nice and encouraging. i think that was the best part of the game today and it made me just ignore some players who think that theyre better than the rest of us and commands me to do stuff like im a robot. LOL. but yeah, i cant wait to play soccer on friday. yay!

and finally, i finished my french homework. thanks to this site online. it really helped me a lot. but honestly i felt like i cheated. but maybe its not really cheating. oh well. im just glad that its done. its gonna be an oral presentation. i still need to practice so i could speak french correctly. :)

qui il pour aujourd'hui,
Jusqu' à la prochaine fois !

day dreamer

2010-03-26T21:54:00.000-07:00

day dreamer

tired. played soccer. but it was fun. i finally got new soccer shoes, yay! i think im getting "better" with the sport (wishful thinking) hah!

oh earlier today, we had a choir rehearsal then i stayed for a while waiting for my friend yuko. i waited in the hall and i could hear the music students singing and playing their instruments. i think it was the recital class. it good, i want to be in that class. it made me want to be a music major. its tempting but i guess i should stick to nursing and finish it soon. but yeah, music will always be my first love. :)

so i come to this point of admiring someone again. i dont like it, its distracting and makes me daydream a lot. not good. hah!

message to that person: i hate you coz you wont stop running in my mind. see you on monday :P

choir fest pics

2010-03-25T16:34:00.000-07:00

choir fest pics

from yesterday's event :)

choir fest

2010-03-24T23:48:00.000-07:00

choir fest

today we went to a choir fest at cal state fullerton. my first performance and trip with the glendale college choir. i just joined last friday. its a non-auditioned choir. i had fun actually. i heard a lot of wrong notes though buts its ok. im one of the "older" people in the choir. its ok though. its nice singing with people around my age. ever since i moved here in the US, most of the choirs i joined have semi pro members and im usually the youngest. its a great learning experience though. singing with the college choir made me realized how much ive matured, chorale singing wise. other than that, im still immature. LOL!!!

oh and i got to meet joshua himes :)

paraiso

2010-03-24T00:23:00.000-07:00

paraiso

Return to a land called Paraiso,
a place where a dying river ends.
No birds there fly over Paraiso,
no space allows them to endure.
The smoke that screens the air,
the grass that's never there.
And if I could see a single bird, what a joy.
I try to write some words and create
a simple song to be heard
by the rest of the world.
I live in this land called Paraiso,
in a house made of cardboard floors and walls.

I learned to be free in Paraiso,
free to claim anything I see.
Matching rags for my clothes,
plastic bags for the cold.
And if empty cans were all I have, what a joy.
I never fight to take someone
else's coins and live with fear
like the rest of the boys.
Paraiso, help me make a stand.
Paraiso, take me by the hand
Paraiso, make the world understand
that if I could see a single bird, what a joy.
This tired and hungry land could expect
some truth and hope and respect
from the rest of the world

one of my favorite song by ryan cayabyab. i like the san beda college chorale's version :)

choir boy

2010-03-22T01:31:00.002-07:00

choir boy

Choirs are like magnet to me. where ever i go, i always end up in one. im actually part of four active choirs right now. crazy eh? well, you can say that but im enjoying it. i think singing is really my passion. but i can say that im a late bloomer though when it comes to singing. i grew up in choirs, its like a normal thing, especially in AUP, the place where i grew up.

in my teenage years, singing comes only second to violin playing. i was some kind of addicted to playing the violin and chamber music. but now, when i joined the orchestra i remembered falling asleep in one of our rehearsals. there was this one performance when there where bellerinas dancing to our music, i forgot to play coz i was so focused watching them. LOL.so yeah, i guess being an orchestra player is not working so well for me. lol.

so yeah, i enjoy choirs so much. and i wanna enjoy it as much as i can, while i still can. :)

warhol-ish pop art

2010-03-20T14:42:00.002-07:00

warhol-ish pop art

i made this using the online generator. however the site has been deleted. sad :(

will you love JESUS more?

2010-03-20T14:12:00.002-07:00

will you love JESUS more?

I feel quite sure if I did my best
I could maybe impress you
With tender words and a harmony
A clever rhyme or two

But if all I've done in the time we've shared
Is turn your eyes on me
Then I've failed at what I've been called to do
There's someone else I want you to see

[CHORUS]
Will you love Jesus more
When we go our different ways
When this moment is a memory
Will you remember His face
Will you look back and realize
You sensed His love more than you did before
I'd pray for nothing less
Than for you to love Jesus more

I'd like to keep these memories
In frames of gold and silver
And reminisce a year from now
About the smiles we've shared
But above all else I hope you will come
To know the Father's love
When you see the Lord face to face

You'll hear Him say "well done"

[REPEAT CHORUS TWICE]

I'd pray for nothing less
Than for you to love Jesus more

cette semaine

2010-03-19T19:58:00.003-07:00

cette semaine

last night: went to americana to watch "shutter island" with kester, then went to universal city walk. man, that movie bothers me, i mean, it made me think about whats reality or not. i dunno, if im bein slow or whatever. LOL. after universal, went to kester's and spent the night.

today: first day in college choir, i got in at exactly 12pm. it was traffic but good thing i still made it. its nice that anna called me to check about my whereabouts. i had to ran super fast and got to the choir room on time with a thumbs up from the director (^_^). i tried to catch my breath as quickly as i can so i could join the vocalization. LOL.

this week: i got and invitation from dr. green to sing the faure requiem with other singers, unfortunately, i have no ride to go to the rehearsal. i feel so bad. hmm, then on tuesday after harana rehearsal i went to some chinese restaurant by k-box with kuya mike, kuya don and kuya dennis. it was fun hangin out with them, we did the barbecue thing on the table. dunno what its called :P then i just realized that it was late and i forgot my house keys! my roommate wont answer my call, i thought she was sleeping already so i tried getting in the apartment through the window. to make the story short, i fell and got wounded. still hurts. waaaaaahhh!!!

and oh yeah, on wednesday i did penalty kick in soccer class. and i scored. LOL!!! :P

cela me rend triste.

2010-03-18T17:07:00.003-07:00

cela me rend triste.

today i missed french tutorial and i really feel bad about it. alice had to stay for an hour and i bet she's really upset about it. i know its my fault and there's no excuse for that. i did say sorry but i still feel so bad.

earthquake today

2010-03-16T15:03:00.003-07:00

earthquake today

today i was awaken by the earthquake. i wasnt sure at first if i was just dreaming or its reality. but when i checked facebook, it was confirmed. fortunately it happened less than a minute. this is the first time in years that ive felt an earthquake. i could hear my neighbor screaming while she's in the shower. i think my bedroom wall is by her bathroom. i think i was 5 or 6 when i first experience an earthquake. i can still recall the images that i saw. it was early 90's, i was in the living room with my mom and my brother. i felt the couch moving and i remember the water from the aquarium began to spill. i was just holding on to my mom, i thought it was fun, i wasnt scared after all. prollie coz my mom is there, i felt safe. i miss her...

after the earthquake we went out. i dunno if it was safe but my mom told me that we should go to an open space, like a field with no buildings or any other structues. i saw the ground were cracked already and saw a lot of earthworms and some electric cords or whatever you call it on the ground. i also remembered us watching the news later. i saw some of the clips from the earthquake and it was very tragic, however in my young mind it dint really sink in to me.

no that i am of age, after the earthquake, it made me ponder on a lot of things. why is there an earthquake? why is this happening? could there be more than just a scientific explanation? could it be God's wake up call?

the flower duet

2010-03-15T14:56:00.003-07:00

the flower duet

Sous le dôme épais où le blanc jasmin
A la rose s'assemble
Sur la rive en fleurs riant au matin

Doucement glissons De son flot charmant
Suivons le courant fuyant
Dans l'onde frémissante
D'une main nonchalante
Viens, gagnons le bord,
Où la source dort et
L'oiseau, l'oiseau chante.

Sous le dôme épais ou le blanc jasmin,
Ah! descendons
Ensemble!

Sous le dôme épais où le blanc jasmin
A la rose s'assemble
Sur la rive en fleurs riant au matin
Viens, descendons ensemble

Doucement glissons de son flot charmant,
Suivons le courant fuyant
Dans l'onde frémissante
D'une main nonchalante
Viens, gagnons le bord
Où la source dort et
L'oiseau, l'oiseau chante.

Sous le dôme épais ou le blanc jasmin,
Ah! descendons
Ensemble!

Translation

Under a dome of white jasmine
With the roses entwined together
On a river bank covered with flowers laughing in the morning

Gently floating on it's charming risings
On the river's current
On the shining waves
One hand reaches
Reaches for the bank
Where the spring sleeps and
The birds, the birds sing.

Under a dome of white jasmine
Ah! calling us
Together!

Under a dome of white jasmine
With the roses entwined together
On a river bank covered with flowers laughing in the morning
Let us descend together
Gently floating on it's charming risings,
On the river's current
On the shining waves,
One hand reaches,
Reaches for the bank,
Where the spring sleeps,
And the birds, the birds sing.

Under a dome of white jasmine
Ah! calling us
Together!

lundi

2010-03-15T14:39:00.003-07:00

lundi

its monday again, i was in school earlier and i realized that i havent done my french composition yet and it was due today. im gonna turn in mine tomorrow. im so dissappointed with myself from not bein able to submit it on time. today students from the student government came to our class and theyre kind of recruiting new students for candidacy or to be part of them whatsoever. im was considering that thought for a while now since i talked to one of them in their booth last time. but im not sure if thats practical since i already have a lot of things goin on ( choirs etc). but it would be nice to get to do that while im still in college. we'll see.

i think im just over compensating. there's a lot of things that i wish to do but dint really get the chance to. or prollie i just really dint do them. hmm. i dunno :P

Mises à jour

2010-03-11T23:56:00.004-08:00

Mises à jour

yay! i get to stay up late tonight. i finally met my tutor Alice. she was really of great help to me in learning french. i still have a lot of memorization to do but im finally getting the rules and the proper conjugation and pronunciation. learning french is really tough for me but im enjoying it.

wow, this week went by so fast. oh yeah, on monday i got in the concert singers. thank God for the fine audition. so yup, now i have 3 active chorale groups. hows that? LOL. its ok, i love to sing. its never a burden to me. i want to enjoy my hobby while i still can and while im still young. bein a youth is just a short time, so i better enjoy it :P

OMGSHHHH!!! i just realized that i have overdue books!!! nooooooo!!!! oh well, i'll return them tomorrow. yikes!

J'irai au biblioteque demain (hope i said it right. LOL)

fun @ barnes and nobles

2010-03-10T15:25:00.003-08:00

fun @ barnes and nobles

my recent facebook profile pic. LOL :P

There is no such thing as a moral or immoral book; books are well written or badly written. ~Oscar Wilde, Picture of Dorian Gray, 1891

photo credit: russiel

tout le monde

2010-03-04T23:33:00.001-08:00

tout le monde

Michel Miguel
Marie Farid
Djamel Marcel
Johnny David
Victor Keiko
Igor Solal
Mounia Antonio
Nastassia Pascual
Tout le monde il est beau
Tout le monde il est beau
Tout le monde il est beau
Tout le monde il est beau
Francois Salman
Franco Loan
Francesca Peter
Pablo Gunter
Thais Martine
Elvis Kevin
Shantala Tatiana
Nebilah Zorba
Tout le monde il est beau
Tout le monde il est beau
Quitte a faire de la peine
a Jean-Marie
Prenom que Sigmund
Zazie que Sally
du meme qu'Alex
pays et Ali
Tout le monde il est beau
Tout le monde il est beau
Tout le monde il est grand
Assez grand pour tout le monde
nananannananna ...
nananannananna ...

everyone is beautiful :)

love month

2010-02-26T16:16:00.004-08:00

love month

another cold valentines day for me. LOL, cold in a sense that i have no one to celebrate it with. but its ok. good thing we had a concert on the 14th. i was so busy rehearsing and learning songs. it was fun though :)

photo credit: M. Mauricio

oops!

2010-01-28T01:20:00.003-08:00

oops!

wow, my first entry this year. HAPPY NEW YEAR BLOG :)
Praise the LORD for 2009 and 2010!

sole voce christmas party

2009-12-25T15:06:00.016-08:00

sole voce christmas party

TINIG wedding gig

2009-12-08T00:34:00.010-08:00

TINIG wedding gig

my debut performance with the group. fun times!!!

happy birthday to my bro Oi Ei

2009-12-06T22:39:00.005-08:00

happy birthday to my bro Oi Ei

my bro turns 23 yesterday. yay! :) Thank you Lord :)

happy birthday kuya melvir!

2009-12-03T13:32:00.005-08:00

happy birthday kuya melvir!

last night we had a surprise party for our beloved kuya melvir. rehearsal was fun too, and the food, yummy. ^^ Thank God for good friends and good times!!!! yay!

GO TINIG!!!

i ♥ sarah brightman

2009-12-02T10:07:00.006-08:00

i ♥ sarah brightman

I wanna watch her concert someday. im such a fanatic.

over due thanksgiving pic

2009-12-02T09:43:00.001-08:00

over due thanksgiving pic

sheraine's 2nd birthday pics

2009-11-26T10:28:00.009-08:00

sheraine's 2nd birthday pics

my friend's daugther turned 2 last sunday. here are some of the pics i took.

happy thanksgiving!

2009-11-26T10:21:00.002-08:00

happy thanksgiving!

im here in orange since monday, my friends moved and i got to help them. so yup, i'll be stayin here the whole week. im having fun actually, i love their new place. i feel like im on a vacation spot. but anyways, this year has been tough. but there's still so much to be thankful for =)

thankful
Some days we forget to look around us
Some days we can't see the joy that surrounds us
So caught up inside ourselves
We take when we should give

So for tonight we pray for
What we know can be
And on this day we hope for
What we still can't see

It's up to us to be the change
And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for

Look beyond ourselves, there's so much sorrow
It's way too late to say, â€œI'll cry tomorrowâ€�
Each of us must find our truth
We're so long overdue

So for tonight we pray for
What we know can be
And every day we hope for
What we still can't see

It's up to us to be the change
And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for

Even with our differences
There is a place we're all connected
Each of us can find each others love

So for tonight we pray for
What we know can be
And on this day we hope for
What we still can't see

It's up to us to be the change
And even though this world needs so much more
There's so much to be thankful for

black is back

2009-11-03T10:49:00.006-08:00

black is back

finally, after almost 2 years of having light colored hair, im back to black. it felt very weird at first. there was a time when i got frightened by my own reflection on the mirror. LOL how crazy is that??! hmm but im lovin my black hair. my friends love it too =)

oh yeah, btw. i got to hang out with my cousin rica. i let her cut my hair... but i think she was a bit scared. lol. and we also went to in and out and i tried to eat cheeseburger. i havent had meat in a long time. prollie around 2 years of more. that was crazy. LOL =P

here are some of the pics :

thank God for best friends!

2009-11-02T22:38:00.002-08:00

thank God for best friends!

jei romanes: ta may tanong ako...
jei romanes: sureness
tata: wat?
jei romanes: na experience mo na ba na nerbiyos ka tapos di mo ma awit tapos parang nanginginig
jei romanes: hehe
jei romanes: may nangyari na ba na ganun sa rehearsal niyo
tata: oo kaya
tata: ang dami
tata: ako rin ganun
tata: hndi lang sa rehearsal
jei romanes: oh yeah???
tata: sa performance mismo
tata: yeah
tata: kahit ngaun....
tata: pag inaatake ako ng nerbyos
tata: hahahaha
jei romanes: OMGSHH mejo na relief naman ako
tata: anu kaba
tata: lahat dumadaan sa ganyan
tata: tsk tsk
tata: hehehehe
jei romanes: yay!!!
jei romanes: so normal lang pala
tata: hndi tau perfect
tata: tao lang
tata: hehehe

heaven.

2009-10-19T11:48:00.004-07:00

heaven

earlier this morning, like early as in 1am-ish, i got to talk with my brother and finally i got news about my violin. it was returned, however, in its very poor state. i was so horrified to found out what happened to my violin. according to my brother, it was broken. like smashed or somethin. everything was broken. my brother was so angry at me, he thought i left it at some airport or something.

Im quite surprise to find out that the case was broken as well and also the bow. i know some violins really breaks due to extreme heat during shipping, but to learn that the bow was broken was shady. i believe the shipping company has something to do with it.

im having mixed feelings right now. that violin has been with me for more than 10 years. that violin took me to a lot f places.. but now its gone and can no longer be played. the worst thing is, my lolo gave me that violin. and he already passed like a month a go.

benefit concert for typhoon ondoy (ketsana) survivor

2009-10-06T17:06:00.003-07:00

benefit concert for typhoon ondoy (ketsana) survivor

last sunday FASO organized a benefit concert for the typhoon survivors in the philippines. many filipino american artists performed and one of them was my singing group sole voce. it was a great experience for me. my first time to witness a fil-am showcase of talents here in LA. it was a low key concert. we're just told to wear jeans and a random top. it was the theme i think.

personally, i was blessed by the event. im glad to be part of it and im happy that in some way i could be of help and of better service even in my littlest ways. I thank God for the success of the concert.

photo by: ben molina

september's almost done...

2009-09-28T18:30:00.002-07:00

september's almost done...

I finally got the energy to post another blog. ive been lazy and i guess disoriented of keeping track of whats going on with my life. lol. but im ok and just hangin in there. i think im gaining weight. and right now, i dont think its a good thing. most of my clothes doesnt fit me anymore and i have a bulging tummy. yikes! i tried working out but not that consistent. oh well...

hmm, yeah, about school. unfortunately i did not make it to PCC. I was on the waiting list and because of too many students, the chances are 50-50 due to the lottery system. but yeah, whatever. I miss my old school, its not as crowded as PCC. i will still continue my schooling though. Im gonna go to the LVN school next month. hopefully i'll get a job too so i could support myself.

so basically, whats keepin me busy right now is job hunting and choir. I am now part of sole voce of los angeles. i got to pursue my passion and also i got to sing some really challenging chorale music. im having fun actually and i look forward to every rehearsals.

hmm what else... a lot happened actually with me this month. I go out like everyday and it became like an everyday thing. me and my roommate dont really cook so we had to go somewhere to eat. good thing we live by the mall. hah!

yup. jeiboi is now cali boy. LOL.

P.S.

lets continue praying for the philippines...

new beginning.

2009-09-03T23:19:00.003-07:00

new beginning.

I live in Cali now. it took me a long time to finally write about it. maybe because it wasn't really sinking in to me that this would be my home for now( i dont know how long though). i have to admit that i dont really like it here, AT FIRST because of some reasons. one of them is the weather. but now i can say that im learning to love it here. thanks to my wonderful friends. sometimes it doesnt really matter where you are at, but who you are with =)

here are some of the things that i am thankful for here in CA.

1. my AUP friends and childhood friends
2. my singing group Sole Voce
3. i live by the mall. haha
4. SOMEONE is making me happy... someone special =)
5. i live close to my cousins now, and my sis.

so yup, i can say that im happy. THank you God.
past is past, its time for me to move on. and i believe God put me here for a reason.
i dont want anymore drama, stress and people putting me down...

summer memories

2009-08-19T16:34:00.007-07:00

♥summer memories♥

my two-month stay in canada has finally came to an end. all i have right now with me are pictures, and good memories. i would like to thank my friends, especially josh, for the wonderful time that i had this summer. this has been one of the most eventful summer ive ever had. its like a roller coaster, it has a lot of ups and downs, sharp turns and sudden drops. pretty educational, eh? ;)

In Defense of Joshua Moralejo

2009-07-21T11:08:00.002-07:00

In Defense of Joshua Moralejo

*Josh and I had been working on this for almost a week now, and finally its done. I posted this on my page because this is the least i can do for my brother.

My brother is one of the most selfless people Ive ever known. I’m not saying this just because he is my best friend, but I’m sure all of his friends know what I mean. I know him as someone who would do anything for his family and friends, someone who would make you feel comfortable, he is talented, smart and God fearing.

Ive stayed with Josh here in toronto last year during our Chozen days. Ive seen all his efforts and I know how much he loved Kae, Im sure all of his close friends will agree to that. He's very committed, and i know he did everything for her. One short story, one time, Josh, Ralph and I went blonde. Kae saw our pictures and was upset about it. She didnt like Josh's hairstyle. The next day, Josh had his head shaved. Josh would really DO everything to make Kae happy, no doubt about it.

However, I, together with our closest friends could somehow sense that something's not going right. But still, Josh kept it to himself. and I understood him for doing that. If I were in his shoes, I would probably do the same thing, and that is to protect the person that I love. We never heard anything negative against Kae. Josh never opened up any of their problems to us, Not until they went their separate ways.

I was in Chicago when Josh broke the news about his separation with Kae. I was shocked and I really cant believe what Ive heard. Josh had invested so much on their relationship and I was sad to hear the news. But somehow, i still feel for him, eventhough Josh didnt really talk much about their issues, I know what He's been going through. I remember, months before their separation, Josh and I talked on the phone. I asked him how he was doin. He told me that he's good, and working two jobs. I was wonderin why he had to work two jobs, he told me that he'll do anything for Kae. He gave most of his earnings for her, and he was lucky enough if there's a $20 bill left for him, but it doesnt really matter as long as he is doing it for Kae. For Josh, just to see her happy is worth all of his sacrifices.

Despite all that, Josh remained unappreciated. It was also the time when he really needed the support, especially from his wife since he was also preparing for his board exam and not only that, he almost lost his eye due to an accident in his work place. A good friend once told me, "i believe, we all come complete, we just need someone to compliment us." I think that this is somehow related to how josh felt. We do things for the person we love without expecting anything in return, but it feels good to feel loved and appreciated too. One thing that really got me was when Josh told me that he once asked Kae to please tell him that she loves him, He just want to hear it coming from her, Josh even asked her to just fake it, but still, Kae never did... Sometimes, even the heart gets tired...

To Josh, my best friend and my brother,
You are not alone. Be strong and of good courage. you're a good man, God will see you through all of this. We love you.

words of encouragements from MJ

2009-07-01T13:04:00.003-07:00

words of encouragements from MJ

"If u have sumthing (a lil bit of wat it takes to get into things) then that's going to California with you. Don't loose it."

"Don't loose what u got. And honestly Stop urself from looking back. U got plenty of time for that on another time. Right now you need to focus on what you gotta and how to pull it off."

"Yes wake up . I mean it. If ur decision of leaving Illinois is valid and it's strong enough to give you a reason to try something different, then by all means use it to ur advantage and make it ur reson to be better"

"If you think you can, you Can Jei ."

almost there.

2009-06-27T17:00:00.002-07:00

almost there.

friends come, friends go
you win some, you lose some.

im not perfect, i make mistakes. some are small, some are life changing.
not everyone will understand, people will judge you.

sometimes even the people you love could hurt you.

be your own bestfriend.

facade.

2009-06-01T08:40:00.005-07:00

facade.

im pretending that i know nothing.
i dont want anymore information.
i just want to be OK.
im pretending to be OK.

see you later chicago!

2009-05-29T06:05:00.003-07:00

see you later chicago!

today is the beginning of my new journey. its gonna be sad but i have to go, sometimes we need to let go of things that weigh us down. i have to go out there and try my own wings.

country boi jei

2009-05-21T19:48:00.005-07:00

country boi jei

jei is sick. for the nth time, i have no voice. im having a hard time breathing coz of asthma. man, i finally got a chance to update my blog. yippee! so yeah whats good is i went to tennessee with my folks during the weekend, it was super awesome! at first i felt like hell coz of the long road trip. i was sitting beside the driver seat and im getting sun-burned. i tried to sleep a lot coz i was bored. but when we got there i was uber happy. i sooo love the country side. i got to see my cousin renee again after 2 years i think... hmm thats a long time. so yeah, i was a country boy for the weekend. me and renee called ourselves hill billies. hah! i had a lil tour around the house and i got to taste honey suckle too!

Thank you Lord.

2009-05-08T13:13:00.002-07:00

THANK YOU, LORD

Copyright 1972 by Lexicon Music, Inc

Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.

focus on God. no more details. just this song sums it all up...

quick updates

2009-04-30T20:39:00.002-07:00

quick updates
just some quick updates on what happened on my dear life recently.

on sunday, we had a concert, we did duke ellington's work. it was fun, we had to wear bright colored button down shirt. i wore the brightest neon green shirt that i found at H&M. jessica chapuis, was also one of the performers, she is a tap dancer, a really awesome one. man, the piece she performed was really long. if i would do that, i'll probably dead by now. lol jk.

my fave among the songs in ellinton's sacred concert is "Heaven". The guy who sang it really did an awesome job.

Heaven my dream
Heaven divine
Heaven supreme
Heaven combines
Every sweet and pretty thing
Life would love to bring
Heavenly Heaven to be
Is just the ultimate degree

its my first time performing this genre of music. it was a nice experience.

also on tuesday, i was part of another concert, the orchestra this time. i actually had fun and thinking of goin back next sem... hmm. man im so in a rush right now. i'll update this again soon and i'll post pics.. =)

the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde

2009-04-23T16:56:00.003-07:00

the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde

finally, i finished reading the book. its a shame that it took me long to finish it since its just a novella with 10 chapters. but yeah, im glad that im getting things done. i still have to summarize the chapters and analyze each one. then i could start researching for premises for my argument. thanks to my dad david for the ideas. =)

current dilemma

2009-04-23T16:46:00.002-07:00

current dilemma

i dunno if i should go to toronto, i mean, part of me wants to, but im not sure if its the right thing. im still on the process of weighing things out.

catching up with abbie/ string quartet concert

2009-04-19T12:41:00.007-07:00

catching up with abbie/ string quartet concert

yesterday was awesome. i always enjoy sabbath. the weather was also nice, it was sunny. i got to play the violin with the praise team at church. it was also nice to see all my church friends. its kinda sad though coz one of the family from church ( the velasquez') are moving back to puerto rico. but its ok, i know God has a plan for them and for everyone. everything happens for a reason.

I was invited by my foster parents, David and Ronelle Holloway (i call them mom and dad)to have lunch at Jesse's place together with our other friends, elvis was goin to be there too. but i cant come since my dad invited me at their friend's house first to have dinner. so yup i went. good thing was abbie castillo was there, a good friend of mine that i havent seen in 3 years. we had an interesting story on how we met. i actually met her on my trip back to manila iin 2005. we were on the same plane together with her sister shelly. we also met another guy named brian. it was great gettiing to meet them.

so yeah, i had a good chat and catching up with abbie, she will be having an internship at some hospital in NYC. im happy for her and proud at the same time. she and her sister are one of the nicest people ive ever known. their parents as well are such nice people. im so glad to have met them in my life.

we took some pics just to "preserve the moment" as abbie calls it. it wasnt our best photoshoot but its better than nothing. lol.

after goin to abbie's i dont wanna go home yet so i decided to just check the Jan Sobieski string quartet concert at the immanuel lutheran church around our neighborhood ( i saw the poster at the public library last week). i havent seen a classical concert in a while. so yeah, it was a breath of fresh air to me. it made me rekindle my "inner violinist" lol im not sure about the term but i guess what im tryin to say is, it kinda inspired me and reminded me of my "lost" passion. i called it lost since i was so into those thing way back, i dreamed of forming my own quartet and doin concerts and stuff but i dunno, i think dreams change. but yeah, im not closing doors to any possibilities.

anyways, the quartet was awesome. the concert was great and the church was solemn. it gave me a relaxing and nostalgic feeling. i want some more of it soon. =)

hmm, so today, i guess i'll be stuck at home. i have an exam tomorrow. i better study. =P

friday rants

2009-04-17T13:13:00.004-07:00

friday rants

yey its the weekend! its also my dad's b-day today. dunno how old is he though. hah! so yeah, week was ok. im at the school library right now. i have no idea what to do next lol. hmm, man, this weekend would be busy, i can tell. psych exam and meeting with dr. kumamoto about the english assignment, and an interview at oak brook. *sigh*

i need summer clothes. but unfortunately, im super broke and super poor as a mouse. thats a cliche! man, i really need to focus. im bein so disoriented these past days. not good. =P

p.s. my brother (RA) is giving me a hard time.

happy easter!

2009-04-12T08:49:00.002-07:00

happy easter!

yey its easter time! and im home alone. lol. well yeah i woke up today and my folks gone. its ok like its somethin new. im not really part of this family thing or whatever. yup!

but anyways, yesterday was a blessed day for me. i got to sing in my home church for the first time. man, i was so nervous. but thank God that everything went well, people were blessed and i myself was blessed. thanks to dustan for singing with me and also to mrs bizzocchi for playing the piano for us. God is really good and His love endures forever =)

it was a long day for me but i enjoyed it, i took a short nap after church then i dropped off meg at her work place, then i went back to church for the health seminar. after sunset we had a gym night and i got to play soccer... for like half an hour. lol. some of the pre-schoolers from church wont let go of me, they kept on chasing me even when im playing soccer so yeah, i had to stop coz i dont want them getting ran over by the soccer kids. lol. it was fun though.

well i guess this is all for now. im still thinking of what to do today, i'll prollie just study and finish the book dr jekyll and mr hyde. man, its so long over due! haha... so yup.

i hope and pray that everyone is having a blessed easter! =)

jei

for naj (late post)

2009-04-12T08:38:00.004-07:00

for naj (late post)

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together?

Circumstances change, people move on, and it's normal to be sad.

on wednesday, april 8 was naj's flight goin to manila, they had a stop over at chicago o'hare airport and we got to talk for while. i was so sad that i was cryin along the hallways of my school. i dont care, im just sad. but thats life, sometimes we had to say goodbye to friends, but its ok. because meeting again after a long time is certain for true friends. i'll miss you naj, have fun in the philippines!

i need a make over.

2009-04-02T14:00:00.002-07:00

i need a make over

im thinking of saying goodbye to my orange-ish light brown hair that is supposed to be ash blonde. lol. but i dunno, i never had black hair in like 2 years. im no longer used to it but i think i should go back to my roots. lol.

so yup. decisions.

man, i really need a job. i think my hair is the problem why i cant get a job. i dunno. but yeah, im really considering getting a hair cut too.

i dunno.

back to school

2009-03-30T16:16:00.003-07:00

back to school

its monday again, my long day. so yup, im here in the library killing time. orchestra finished earlier than usual. i still have an hour before choir rehearsal.

OMGSHHH, i almost got a perfect score on psych exam! 2 mistakes man. arrrggggh!!! but its ok, im still at the top! yey! i cant believe this. now i realize that maybe i do have a shot in school. having no social life does help... a bit. lol. maybe i should be a psychologist too. i would definitely consider doin that someday. but yeah, one step at a time. =)

God is really good. ALWAYS.

oh yeah, finally i got to play a duet wit Christa last saturday. We played the piece called "He". Im glad that the people liked it, i myself was blessed. i wanna do it again soon. I want to play for God, and no one else.

=)

how to improve your reading retention

2009-03-24T13:29:00.002-07:00

how to improve your reading retention

SQ3R is a five-step reading strategy similar to PQRST and KWL table. The name is an abbreviation of the five steps of the strategy: Survey (or Skim), Question, Read, Recite (or Recall) and Review.

1 Survey (2 minute): Before beginning reading look through the whole chapter. See what the headings are—the major ones and the subheadings; hierarchical structures seem to be particularly easy for our brains to latch onto—check for introductory and summary paragraphs, references, etc. Resist reading at this point, but see if you can identify 3 to 6 major ideas in the chapter.

2 Question (usually less than 30 seconds): Ask yourself what this chapter is about: What is the question that this chapter is trying to answer? Or—along the curiosity lines—What question do I have that this chapter might help answer? Repeat this process with each subsection of the chapter, as well, turning each heading into a question. (As a variation of this technique, you can write the important question down; this is called SQW3R)

3 Read (at your own pace): Read one section at a time looking for the answer to the question proposed by the heading. This is active reading and requires concentration so find yourself a place and time where you can concentrate.

4 Recite/write (about a minute): Say to yourself out loud or write down a key phrase that sums up the major point of the section and answers the question. It is important to use your own words, not just copy a phrase from the book. Research shows that we remember our own (active) connections better than ones given to us (passive), indeed that our own hierarchies are generally better than the best prefab hierarchies.

5 Review (less than 5 minutes): After repeating steps 2–4 for each section you have a list of key phrases that provides a sort of outline for the chapter. Test yourself by covering up the key phrases and seeing if you can recall them. Do this right after you finish reading the chapter. If you can't recall one of your major points, that's a section you need to reread.

The Review part is usually meant to be an ongoing process. Flash cards, notes or other material made during one of the above 5 steps, can be used to review for a few minutes every day for several days

spring break starts now...

2009-03-23T10:18:00.002-07:00

spring break starts now...

and im stayin at home dreaming of goin to florida and go swimming on the beach and getting tanned! but unfortunately, im super broke and i got homeworks to do... yikes!

bro and sis day

2009-03-17T17:51:00.009-07:00

bro and sis day

baptism of fire

2009-03-16T10:02:00.011-07:00

baptism of fire

some pics from st. patty's weekend party. man. i havent done this in ages. thanks to my friend lyndon for this yummy night.

screen caps

2009-03-15T15:28:00.002-07:00

screen caps

tgif!

2009-03-13T11:14:00.002-07:00

tgif!

yey! this week has been good. God is always good. He knows what we're goin through and i know that He work in perfect timing. I should not worry because He got my back. He wont take me this far to leave me. He has plans for me and i believe it. Although sometimes i do things that are not in accordance to His will, He is always there for me no matter what. His heart is really big enough...

You say you've been gone, for so long
You're just not sure, which way is home
You're almost too tired, to walk
You're so worn out, from being alone

He is right there beside you
And He wants you to know
He still cares, He still wants you
For His own

His heart is, big enough to love you
Even though you turned Him away
His arms are, long enough to save you
And give you another chance
To make up for your mistakes
His grace is, more than sufficient
Even when your heart aches
Even though your to blame
His heart is, big enough to love you
So run back to Him, today

There's no reason to be afraid
You're not in His way,He understands
He knows how to forgive, and forget
Don't give up yet, You're in His hands

He's been right there beside you
And He wants you to know
He still cares, He still wants you
For His own

His heart is, big enough to love you
Even though you turned Him away
His arms are, long enough to save you
And give you another chance
To make up for your mistakes
His grace is, more than sufficient
Even when your heart aches
Even though your to blame
His heart is, big enough to love you
So run back to Him, today

He bought you back with His own blood
On Calvary
So back in His arms is where
He wants you to be
And what He longs for is to see you
Totally, completely free

His heart is, big enough to love you
Even though you turned Him away
His arms are, long enough to save you
And give you another chance
To make up for your mistakes
His grace is, more than sufficient
Even when your heart aches-acap

save me from sex predators.

2009-03-13T11:08:00.002-07:00

save me from sex predators.

ok, some random guy from the library asked me if i wanted extra money. he wants me to come with him in the bathroom. OMGSHH how ridiculous is that. im no prostitue. waaaaaaaahhhh!!!!!! i wonder why i get a lot of those. but yeah, its important to say no. just say no. =)

CHOZEN turns ONE!

2009-03-07T13:06:00.005-08:00

CHOZEN turns ONE!

God has been so good to us. great is thy faithfulness indeed.

Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father;
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;
As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be.

Refrain

Great is Thy faithfulness!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!

Summer and winter and springtime and harvest,
Sun, moon and stars in their courses above
Join with all nature in manifold witness
To Thy great faithfulness, mercy and love.

Refrain

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide;
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!

Refrain

mondays... mondays... mondays...

2009-02-23T09:18:00.003-08:00

mondays... mondays... mondays...

today is gonna be my long day again. after classes, i have orchestra, then choir. what was i thinking when i made my schedule? LOL. i really dont like the choir's repertoire this sem. its the jazzy type. we're gonna be accompanied by a jazz band instead of an orchestra. and there would be tap dancers. i havent seen them perform yet, but maybe i would like it. and yeah orchestra... *sigh* its torture. im not sure if im still gonna join next sem.

hmm, so yeah. i can say that my weekend went well, i got to see my friends from MI, meagan and mandie, two of my favorite singers. and on sunday, i had dinner with my foster parents, the Holloways. food was good. its always a blessing to me being at their place.

i think this is all for now. i still have to read another chapter of my book. and also, i still need to look for a job online. wAAAAAAH! job hunting is a B****! oops, sorry for the language. =P

Understanding Seelye: A Textual Analysis

2009-02-20T10:38:00.002-08:00

Understanding Seelye: A Textual Analysis

*this is the draft of my writing assignment, not yet complete. this is so hopeless...

Seelye, Katharine Q. “Lurid Numbers on Glossy Pages! (Magazines Exploit What Sells)” The Norton Field Guide to Writing with Readings. Eds. Richard Bullock & Maureen Daly Goggin. New York, London W.W. Norton & Company 2007. 525-529.

“A trip to the newsstand these days can be a dizzying descent into a blizzard of numbers”, says Katherine Q. Seelye, author of “Lurid Numbers on Glossy Pages! (Magazines Exploit What Sells!). In this article, the author explored the wonders numbers can do in magazine sales and how people yield to this number tactics. She claims that in magazine publication, number sells.

Seelye analyzes that most of this publications are aimed at women. “Service” publications especially, are filled with random tips and trends that will surely catch women’s attention. She states that editors used numbers as a selling point while readers find all the information they want in the magazine. Men’s magazines too, according to Seelye are buying the numbers racket. She illustrates how editors used catchy phrases and tips to get men’s attention, one of the schemes used are polls. Seelye warns readers that polls can sometimes be mistaken as interviews. In addition, Seelye reveals that editors sweat to find out the perfect numbers but there is no solution, it is all due to chance.

The author also points out that odd numbers are far more believable that even numbers. Odd numbers speaks authenticity, she relates from an interview with an editor. She assesses that editors insists that they use numbers that their writers actually find in their reporting. And they said that number 7 have a certain appeal while 13 is to be shunned. The size of the numbers however depends on the subject matter, reports the author. She finds that smaller numbers are used for serious matters like exercise tips, and bigger numbers are fine for something that says value without saying work.

Most editors test their magazine covers in focus groups to find which cover is more alluring to customers, says Seelye. She reports that the winning cover is almost always the one with large numbers printed on it. Numbers sticks out and draw the eye on monthly magazines, which aid the publishers’ battle with celebrity magazine. The author alleges that the biggest force that monthly magazine are dealing with is celebrity magazines. “You are not competing with other people’s numbers, you’re competing with Brad and Angelina and babies” quotes Seelye from a statement given by Kate White, editor of Cosmopolitan (p.527).

Sex still sells, claims the author, especially when confounded with celebrities. But in front of those glamorous celebrity photos, still stand the numbers. She describes how Glamour magazine features Sarah Jessica Parker’s photo on the cover, surrounded by numbers. The author finds that magazine editors used numbers to give readers something to focus on against the busy background.

However, numbers are more than just a graphic device, says Seelye as she notes that people are busy, and because of that, a quick, entertaining and informative read is ideal. She also explains that editors also use numbers to tell their readers what they have found and to alert them about the editor’s expertise, without wasting their reader’s time, since internet is also a powerful device in getting massive informations. The author relates that although some editors are trying to drop their numbers use, readers are still looking for numbers according to research, which shows that numbers really sell.

Seelye points out the difference between newsstand and subscription sales. According to her, newsstand sales are more money-spinning than subscriptions, because publishers find their new customers in newsstands, while subscribers already know what they want and has already subscribed, and probably at a discount. The author relates that still; newsstands sales have their own problems. It become more crowded and promotional space at checkout counters have become more expensive. Because of this, some editors start to produce separate magazine covers, one for newsstand and one for subscription. “On the newsstand, the cover is acting as a poster, an ad for what’s inside, the loyal reader is looking for what makes the magazine exceptional” Seelye quotes Glenda Bailey, editor of Harper’s Bazaar (p. 528).

In an interview with some magazine readers, Seelye finds that they also look for numbers, particularly in rankings and ratings. She relates how readers used numbers as a point system and to let them evaluate things quickly. But the author reveals that editors admit that they still use numbers even if they have already burned out.

somethin to talk about

2009-02-20T10:22:00.003-08:00

somethin to talk about

im happy that its finally friday. this week has been good, well sort of. nothin interestin really happened. its just home-school-library for me. and i do try finding a job, i sent in a lot of applications already, both online and walk ins.

school has been ok, i had a psych exam last wednesday, i was a bit frustrated coz i dint get to answer some of the questions correctly. but im pretty sure that i passed that test coz ive prepared so much for that. i also did a paper for my writing composition class. man, writing is not my forte. the only thing i could write is this blog, no rules and style or whatever. hah!

what else... hmm. oh yeah, im so thankful for friends, but right now i would like to thank my friend CHAM for all the support. she's very motherly. lol jk. but yeah, she's really a friend that i can count on. she's the one on the pic, it was from her screenshot actually. that pic caused her trouble. i thought it was funny. oops sorry cham. =P

because of a girl

2009-02-11T14:50:00.002-08:00

because of a girl
today i got to drive jenny home. it was raining so hard earlier and i thought maybe jenny needs a ride, but before i got to ask her, she called me first. man, goodthing my genius in driving did not show up. LOL. she lives pretty far but i had fun driving with her. i think she's cool.

whew!

2009-02-11T13:07:00.002-08:00

whew!

Psych exam has been moved on monday! what a relief. but not so much, i think ive prepared enough for that test and iw as excited. but its ok, Thank God for more time to study. i think ive been studying a lot but i still felt guilty of goin to the theatres last night to watch underworld. LOL. yup, my friend lyndon invited me. i dint really like movie, but its ok.

job hunting.

2009-02-06T13:47:00.002-08:00

job hunting.

yup, until now i havent found a job yet. i had an interview the other day but unfortunately i dint get the job. how frustrating. im running out of money and i need to pay my bills. man, this is crazy. but yeah, i should find one soon.

so its the weekend finally. nothing interesting is goin on so far, no plans. well, almost every weekend friends are asking me to go out and party with them but unfortunately, i cant coz im broke. but maybe i dont really like partying or goin out getting wasted. well, ive never been wasted or somethin but i just dont wanna be surrounded by people doin those "crazy" things. well i may sound like the most boring person right now but yeah who cares. i have a different idea of fun. and besides, im super broke!!! someone save me. but yeah, thanks to my cousin for sending me some money for gas and food. OMGSH im so useless. but i hope not for long.

hmm, so yup. i need a job. soon.
have a great weekend =)

happy birthday toua!

2009-02-06T13:30:00.003-08:00

happy birthday toua!

yesterday my brother josh turned 23. we're the same age now.

this is me with bro and ate shelly as the ghost lady =P

music, my anti-drug

2009-02-04T15:55:00.005-08:00

music, my anti-drug
i wrote this narrative for my english composition class. i dont really like writing but its my homework so i have to. honestly, im not really inspired by my grandfather. most of the emotional part of this was fabricated.

My literacy in music started at an early age. As far as I can remember, music has always been a part of my life. I am not a prodigy or someone you could call “gifted”, but somehow I can say that I am blessed with an ear and a heart for music.

Looking back at my childhood, I was often awakened by beautiful piano music played by my grandfather who lived with us. How I love to wake up with the rich, yet mellow sound of the piano. The music gave me a sense of peace and gratitude that made me appreciate each new day. It was as if God was telling me that everything is going to be alright. I was so thrilled once when my grandfather
played an up tempo piece. With my little toy drum I followed the beat of the music, like a metronome. After my “little” performance, my grandfather smiled at me with an approving look on his face. That might be the time when my folks thought that I might be ready for my music lessons.

At the age of five, I found myself in a little studio of my first piano teacher. I was very eager to learn, however, the butterflies in my stomach won’t seem to stop fluttering. “Teacher, please teach me” I mumbled, followed with an awkward bow. That was the first thing I learned from my teacher – COURTESY. Silence filled the room while I wait for instructions, but somehow the secretive ticking
of the clock on the wall seemed to expose itself. Sweat flowed slowly on my cheek as my lesson goes on, then the sight of it dripping on the piano keys made me more apprehensive. Good thing that incident happened only during my first time.

After several months, my first piano recital is coming ahead. The traditional tunes Lightly row and Honey bee were my first recital piece. Every day, my little hands would play the same two songs over and over again, trying to memorize and master it. The recital day came; I rehearsed one last time before we went to the venue. Piano students together with their parents all gathered for that
special day, everyone looked so nice and excited. We were seated according to the order of performance. In next in no time, my turn came. Being in front of a huge crowd, the stage felt like the coldest place on earth. Applause thundered the hall after my performance. That was the day I felt so proud of myself.

My piano lessons continued until when I was in fourth. We had to move to the province and live there for a while because of my mom’s job. It was my very first time to move to a new place, and it was also my first time being separated with my grandfather. It was tough but I had to deal with it. Our new home was located in a very small town, surrounded by vast farmlands and a hundred miles
away from the city. Very different from where we used to live. We couldn’t find a piano teacher for me, so I guess I had to stop for a while. Gradually, I stopped playing the piano. That time, Music stopped playing in my life, and my passion and love for it walked away.

Years went by and my elementary graduation came. My mom decided to send
me back to the city where we used to reside, for me to attend high school. It was a very exciting moment for me. Like most teenagers, I was adventurous and had a lot of ideas of fun and exciting things to do. I had this sense of freedom, but I later found out that I am going to stay with my grandparents again. That idea seemed to lessen my excitement. Before long, school days were here again. my grandfather suggested that I continue taking piano lessons.

He found me a new teacher and started reviewing what I had learned from the past. It was not the same as before, I no longer have the same enthusiasm of learning and making music. Laziness and stubbornness took over. Often times I skipped my piano lessons, until I just completely stopped. For sure, my grandfather was not really pleased about it. But one day, while I was organizing some of my things in the closet, I noticed a box sitting on top of the shelf. Driven by curiosity, I took a chair for me to step on and reached for the box. I opened it and saw a violin inside. How I admired the intricate details on it. On the spur of the moment I went to my grandfather and showed him what I discovered.

“That is your cousin’s violin that he is not using anymore” he said.

“It has been in that box for quite some time now”

“Can I play with it?” I timidly asked.

“Well, of course you can, I was planning to sell it since no one seemed

interested in it”

“But if you wanted to learn how to play the violin, you can have it”

From then on, I found myself rediscovering music. I took the opportunity of learning
a new instrument and my passion for music was once again rekindled. “You will never regret learning how to play an instrument” my grandfather once told me. As days and years passed, those words remained in my thoughts and I came to a point where I pondered that maybe, he’s right. I became an orchestra player and had the opportunity to travel and meet a lot of new people. It was fun and exciting, but nothing compares with the joy of seeing my family, especially my grandfather, with audience whenever I perform. Those moments are priceless.

My life seemed different, and my ideas of fun have changed. Making music is like
therapy for me, an outlet of stress and a freedom of expression. I wonder how my life would be if my younger years were spent doing other things, if I exchanged my time practicing to doing what most teenagers thought was fun.

25 random things about me.

2009-01-28T13:21:00.005-08:00

25 random things about me.

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.

Since the snow has literally drowned our driveway and everywhere else, I have all the time in the world to do this:)

1. I wish i have older siblings.

2.Growing up in the Philippines, i often dreamed and prayed for snow before i go to bed. then i would wake up early and go outside and check if my prayers were answered. Guess what? no snow.

3. I have a huge collection of trolls and GI Joes when i was a kid. i still have the trolls back in manila, but all the GI Joes are dead now after i put them all in my big tonka truck and blow them away with "five-stars" ( a type of filipino fire cracker)

4.I learned how to drive a motorbike when i was 6. i stopped after having an accident that burned my left leg. good thing i have no scars.

5. I love the smell of gasoline and isopropyl alcohol.

6. I was pyrophobic as a kid. it started after me and my friends almost burned their whole backyard and we dont know how to stop it. i just cried while my other friends are trying to stop it by fanning the flames, which in turn, made the fire bigger. neighbors came to the rescue.

7. I collect chuck taylors. i think i have 20 pairs already. its one of my guilty pleasures and it should stop.

8. Ive always wanted to learn how to play the Harp.

9. My favorite orchestra instrument is the timpani.

10. I used to be so obsessed with my violins that i gave them names. my first one is Heaven, then Prince, then my pink one, Miyuki. I think i lost Prince though. He's prollie somewhere in Manila.

11. My dream job as a kid includes bein an astronaut, a circus performer, and a person who sells balloons in the park. hey atleast i have dreams!

12. Im trying to learn spanish. i even labeled almost anything around the house with spanish translations. LOL.

13. I experienced bein a "survivor" once. me with some of my highschool classmates spent a night in an island without electricity, fresh water and no shelter. just a plain island. we slept by the shore. and woke up with lots of insect bites. it was terrible.

14. I usually customize and alter my clothes. i barely find clothes that suits me perfectly. most of my clothes have stitches on the sides to make it smaller.

15. I was a choirboy since i was 5. i sang 1st soprano back then, now im baritone.

16. I can't pronounce the letter "R" correctly. people think it sounds funny when i try to. thats why i dont like my first name.

17. I am somewhat a Lacto-ovo-vegetarian.

18.I dreamed of bein overweight.

19. I used to want to be a fashion photographer.

20. I am uncomfortable having my photo taken.

21. Im used to be so scared of theme parks. but thanks to my CHOZEN friends who helped me learn to enjoy it. I would like to thank specially my brother Josh for such sweet torture.

22. Toronto is my "fave" hometown. I just love everything about it. People are so nice and fashionable. i love taking the TTC and most of all, i met my bestfriends/ family there... and that brings me to number 23.

23.I Love my group CHOZEN. we're practically married with each other. oops wrong term coz that would be like incest. hah!

24. Im a bit obsessed with my hair. my hair is naturally wavy but i straighten it most of the time and spike it.

25.im single =P

sunday brunch

2009-01-25T11:18:00.003-08:00

sunday brunch

it was 9:30 am today when i woke up. my headaches for sleeping with lights on. i was alone in the basement and i was scared. i felt like a little boy scared of monsters. the scenes and images from the horror films that i watched with my friends in canada was haunting me. i was hugging cho-cho. im trying to imagine myself last night and now i think its funny. or should i say stupid. hah!

later on, i got ready and i went somewhere to eat. im not really hungry but i have to eat something. i spotted the great american bagel just around the area. ive never been there and i thought it would be nice to try somethin new. i went in, it reminded me of tim horton's in canada, but i realized that they are so different from each other.

country music was playing, it added warmth and coziness to the place. then i found out that the music playing was live. there were a couple, prollie in their late 50's making that music. im not really a fan of country music and i barely listen to it, but today i found it quite enjoyable. it gave me that "american country life" feel.
i showed them my appreciation by applauding everytime as song is finish. soon it was time for them to leave. they put their guitars back in its case and they put on their coats. the lady put on her sunglasses and took somethin from her purse and i later discovered that it was a telescoping cane. i didnt know that she's visually impaired.

after my meal, i get back to the car quickly and turned the heat on. man, it was freezing. i was pondering on my "experience" and i've realized how music can make you feel good. and how it appeals to everyone. it sort of bind people together no matter who you are, what your ethnicity is and whats your status in life. i think that is one of my best brunch ever.

the end.

little flowers never worry

2009-01-23T09:18:00.001-08:00

little flowers never worry

Little flowers never worry
When the wind begins to blow.
And they never, never cry
When the rain begins to fall.

Oh, it's wet and oh so cold,
Soon the sun will shine again.
Then they'll smile unto the world,
For their beauty to behold.

When the clouds begin to gather
And the storm begins to blow,
Little flowers don't complain,
Though they're tossing to and fro.

Oh, I guess they've learned the secret,
They don't fret because they know,
If it never, never rained,
Then they'd never, never grow.

So, let it rain, let it rain, let it pour,
Little trouble keep on knocking at my door,
If we'll learn the right from wrong,
It will help to make us strong.

Lord, please help us learn the secret,
Even little flowers know,
If it never, never rains
Then we'll never, never grow.

ive never really appreciated this song until one tough day, i was driving while listening to ate baverly's cd. this was one of the tracks. i listened to the lyrics and pondered on the message of the song. ive realized one thing. we should not worry. trials are part of life. this song is very simple, even little children could understand. im putting this song in my feel good list =)

uber late holiday pichurs.

2009-01-22T16:36:00.010-08:00

uber late holiday pichurs.

back to school.

2009-01-22T16:26:00.002-08:00

back to school.

yup. finally im back to school. still in college of dupage. first day was exhausting. i just got the books today. i have a lot of reading to do when i get home since i missed some classes last week. but all is good. im happy to be in school. i hope everything would go well, especially my finances. OMGSHH. i hope my fafsa would be approved. and yeah, i need a new job. i dint get fired but i need a job that would fit my schedule. man, i hope i'll get one soon. hmm anyways this is just a quick update. ttyl blog.

bum

2009-01-07T11:35:00.003-08:00

bum.

Jei is a bum in toronto. hahaha.
well, its ok though. its nice to be a bum once in a while.
but not always and not for too long. bwahhaha.

hello 2009!

2009-01-01T15:16:00.003-08:00

hello 2009!

happy new year to everyone!

dont let it snow.

2008-12-16T16:38:00.004-08:00

dont let it snow

i dont want anymore snow. well, snow its ok as long as im not driving. its really crazy. i still made it to the library though even if its really bad outside. so yeah, im here at library using their computers. im listening to friska's recording right now. its really nice and i love her voice. i talked with her on the phone last night, it was awesome catching up with her. we used to be choirmates in AUP.

im turning 23 tomorrow. and i have no plans. i have to work. how sad is that? lol, but its ok, im celebrating my birthday in toronto this weekend. yey. oops i have no ticket yet. i should get it now.

hmm what else is new. nothin really interesting. oh yeah, iris is back from puerto rico. only for 3 weeks though. i went to her place last saturday for lunch together with other friends from church. so yup, it was super fun. and invited christa too. its nice to have good friends.

here are some pics.

winter updates

2008-12-10T08:06:00.002-08:00

winter updates

waaaaaaahhh!
its been a while. man, this is so cliche to me. this is my most over used phrase to start my blog. LOL. but yeah. its crazy.

blah.

2008-11-17T18:11:00.003-08:00

blah.

yey i got to update my blog today. its been like ages. well not so much. so yeah, a lot of things happened since the last time i was here.

hmm, first, we have a new president. BARACK OBAMA! i cant vote yet, but if i could, i would definitely vote for him. what else, oh yeah my bro went back to the philippines last week, he's planning of goin to school there. and i got my car fixed, finally! well, i think its about time. i was pushing my car to its limit, i almost got into an accident. i was driving like a drunk person. man, that was a horrifying experience. THANKS be to GOD for keeping me safe. imagine driving without brakes. how crazy is that.

i also chopped of my bangs. i dint like how it turned at first but now i kinda like it. it grows so fast anyway. and i dunno what else to say. i still have a lot of pills to pay and its driving me crazy. hah! ok im just bein so random but who cares. i need a computer. im paying for internet at home and i dont even have a computer anymore. im actually at the library right now. i was gonna upload pics but i cant. me and meg just got here from the holloways, we helped them unpacked some groceries for thanksgiving. it was a lot, we're gonna give it away to the homeless people. im excited! =]

oh yeahh!! i got to watch the heritage singers concert in hinsdale. it was awesome and spirit filled. i dint get to take pictures wit them though. but its ok.

oops, the library is closing in 30 minutes. i got to go!!!

cinema paradiso

2008-10-27T08:34:00.003-07:00

cinema paradiso

finally, i got to see the movie. it was uber awesome. very emotional. not the typical love story. not the very romantic type, but still its a love story. every story is a love story.

Se tu fossi nei miei occhi per un giorno
Vedresti la bellezza che piena d'allegria
Io trovo dentro gli occhi tuoi
E nearo se magia o lealta

Se tu fossi nel mio cuore per un giorno
Potreste avere un'idea
Di cio che sento io
Quando m'abbracci forte a te
E petto a petto, noi
Respiriamo insieme

Protagonista del tuo amor
Non so se sia magia o lealta

Se tu fossi nella mia anima un giorno
Sapresti cosa sono in me
Che m'innamorai
Da quell'istante insieme a te
E cio che provo e
Solamente amore

translation:
If you were in my eyes for one day
You could see the full beauty of the joy
I find in your eyes
Not knowing if it's magic or real

If you were in my heart for a day
You would have an idea
Of what I feel
When you hold me strongly to you
Heart to heart,
Breathing together

Protagonist of your love
I don’t know if it’s magic or real

If you were in my soul for a day
You would know what is inside me
That I fell in love
At that instant, together with you
And what I sense
It’s only love...

super random updates

2008-10-22T16:46:00.004-07:00

super random updates

ok, where will i start. hmm let's see.
oh yeah, about my job. its ok. cant complain about it. im getting more hours since my co worker maria got fired. about harrington, no more harrington for now. i got some financial aid from the government but still it would only cover like 45% of my tuition. the rest, i have to pay, or i have to get a loan to pay for it. my dad dint sign. i have no co signer so yeah, i cant have it. so i have to cancel my application. but i think its all good. i dont really wanna pay loan after college. even if its the only way i can think of to get money for college. but yeah whatever. im really fickle minded. as of now, i dunno what to do with my life. i wanna go back to AUP though next year. WAAAAAAAAAHHHH. this is so crazy. but yeah, im praying about it and working hard and trying to save money for my "trip". well, its just a plan. but yeah. im still confused. (0_o)

lovelife. still ZERO. LOL. im not even looking for one. i guess. LOL. but i think i like someone right now. (^_*) but anwyays, i dont think i need it one now(lovelife). ive been so pre occupied lately. but i dont let it stress me out. i still try to find a lot of ways to enjoy life. hah! hmm...

what else. oh yeah, today i got a text message from josh. it was 6:30am when i got it. im like, whats up wit this person. but its all good. its great getting to hear from my toronto friends. man, how i miss them. i miss my chozen family. i think we really are DISBANDED!!!! OMGSHH. i cant believe this. LOL. so yeah, josh might come visit me soon. i think i need a time off for myself too. and it would great to get to hangout wit him again. and i hope that we could sing a duet in church. but we'll see.

OOOHHHHHHHHH yeahhh, last night i got to watch another foreign film, TSOTSI, its an african one. i was tryin to rent it a long time but im doubting the movie that it might just bore me. it was my first african movie i think.

i rented it from the library. i got 3 movies. i might watch one tonight. this is awesome. HAH! and i love goin to the library. im actually here right now. (^_*) meg is here too, she's doing some random things here. and i dont wanna know. LOL. man im bein so random. well, im random, like everyone else. =P

happy birthday bleigh!

2008-10-20T17:48:00.008-07:00

happy birthday bleigh

*BLEiGH's definition to me
talented photographer, singer, fashionista, make-up artist, student leader and most of all, one of the few that i call true friends. its really awesome having a friend like her, she's like a family to me. i really miss her. there's never a dull moment with her, we're almost together everyday when i was back in tdot, eating, sleeping, playing wii, watching movies, swimming, going to wonderland, and lalaland, driving anywhere, singing, going to church, shopping and just soaking up at josh's place. kulang nalang maligo kami ng sabay. hah! aww man, GOODTIMES!

a world filled with love

2008-10-11T22:20:00.005-07:00

a world filled with love

this is my fave anime theme song back in the days. this is the dragon ball z theme song in the philippines. this song brings back a lot of memories from my childhood. i remember singing this in falceto. LOL. hmm, nothing really important. i just remembered this song randomly while im at work, prollie coz i daydream so much. =P

Life is so exciting and free
There are lots of good things to see
Fantasies, we can make them happen in this world
Lets not lose out precious time
They are really hard to find
Lets all go, and find adventures in this life
Oh we may see some mysteries that puzzle everyone
We must be strong to face them all like battles to be won
Aim high, reach for the sky now
Let love teach you the way how

Oh this world is filled with love
Oh this world is filled with love
So glad to know you do believe what love can do for you
Oh this world is filled with love
Oh this world is filled with love
Challenges make us strong, the power of love makes us win
As it fills us with joy!

jei the explorer

2008-10-03T08:56:00.004-07:00

jei the explorer

sometimes, we are so pre-occupied that we forget to see and appreciate some of the wonderful things around us. i myself can relate to that. ive been here in downers grove for years and im just starting to explore and enjoy the places around here. it started when we lose our internet connection, i began goin to the library and i began going out of the house and exploring places. i think its fun, and exciting, there's a lot of things to try and discover around here. and everywhere else!

i feel like a child learning and seeing new things, i feel like dora the explorer. LOL. there's a whole lot more to explore. life is short to waste time, there's a lot of things to see, learn, enjoy and be thankful =]

thursday randoms

2008-10-02T14:47:00.003-07:00

thursday randoms

i never really get the chance to write the things that i really wanted to. whenever i sit in front of the computer in the library, i just cant relax and a lot of things are running in my mind. things like, the time, thinking whether i parked in the right parking lot and other stuff. i feel so pressured.

oh well, today is thursday and it is my day off. we already have internet at home but i dont get to use my brother's computer coz he's playing a lot of online games. i hope i could save money soon and buy myself a reliable computer of my own. *sigh*

tomorrow is my baby jannin's 1st birthday. its sad because i cant be with them. but they wont be having a birthday party til next week since my kuya dennis is flying to california with auntie mae for auntie tintin's wedding on sunday. mama mina and lolo dong would be there too, i think they already left manila yesterday. auntie shirly is already there i think. i wanna see them all but im so broke. i cant afford to go there now.

about harrington, im not positive that it would still pursue. there are thing that i just cant do right now no matter how hard i try. maybe its not the right time yet, or maybe its not really for me. only God knows. but i dunno, i just feel so numb and i worry less. weird. good thing is im not bein depress. and i have a lot of plans and im working it out. i think thats all for now. =P

monday thoughts

2008-09-29T16:00:00.003-07:00

monday thoughts

so its been a while since my last post. we dont have internet yet. i dunno why. so yup, i still have to go to the library to check my mails. i finally got to fax the documents needed for me to get financial aid. i dunno what will happen next. i dunno if i'll get in to harrington. its ok if i dont, it means its not for me. i have another option, and for me, its a better one. AUP it is! LOL. its still the best school i could think of right now. LOL.

im tryin to find an apartment for me and corrie. we're planning to be roommates when she moves in chicago. i think that would be awesome and fun. except for the bills and the rent. hah!

what else. today i worked as always, i even worked last saturday. ive been so busy lately. and my "cousin" meg is driving me crazy. LOL. im always out of the house. on wednesday i might have to go downtown for a workshop. its a free workshop for future students of harrington. so yup, im planning to go. goodthing i only have to work til 4pm. i still have time to commute.

im still missin my friends. i knew this would happen to me if i go and watch the amba. LOL. they made me wanna go back home to AUP. and study there. LOL. im pretty much bein random right now. i dont like it when people are looking or watching me while im writing my blog. its ridiculous.

oh yeah, i saw this girl at work again. LOL. it reminds me of one of christian bautista's song. "there's somethin in the way, you look at me" OMGSHH im bein so cheesy right now. LOL. or maybe im just bein pathetic. LOL. but yeah, i'll tell the story next time. i still have a lot of things to write. i need a major update. hah! and i wanna do it in private.

so yup, thats it for now. ^_*

AUP Ambassadors Chorale Arts Society

2008-09-25T09:31:00.013-07:00

AUP Ambassadors Chorale Arts Society

some pics i took of the gala concert at howard center for performing arts in andrews university in michigan.

trip to michigan recaps

2008-09-23T15:21:00.006-07:00

trip to michigan recaps

im super tired and overwhelmed. i had a pretty long weekend, it was awesome, i got to see a lot of friends and former schoolmates in AUP.

meeting corrie
it was so random, i was walkin outside lamson hall ( girls dorm) and i just heard someone calling my name. LOL. it was corrie, my friend in facebook. i havent seen here in person before but she said she saw me in AUP already. she was so nice, and pretty. i thought she was from cebu, coz of her accent, but later i found out that she's indonesian and she's also madielyn garcia's friend. and yeah, she was also a former member of unceasing cantica. she's awesome =]

the surprise/ tata's birthday
ok, no one know that my trip pushed through, i told ate arnie that im no longer coming to andrews, but yeah, i still did. because its also tata's birthday. so yup, after my long tiring trip from chicago, i went stright to ate arnie's place. no one's home. i tried looking for ate irene in the dormitory but i found out that she doesnt live there. good thing i have the phone number of tata's host. so i called and told auntie cora not to tell tata that im coming over. so yup, i went there and i was really excited seeing tata again and also her housemates, sugar, asyll and sherry. i drove them to howards.

the concert

ok, i was at the back stage with the ambassadors, thats when i saw deemo and enan, they were actually surprised to see me. deemo was still doin her make up and enan was changing to his uniform. kuya boj was there too. they were about to do sound check, so i went to listen and to take some pics. but i dont wanna stay and listen to them rehearsing, i dont wanna spoil the concert, they have a new repertoire now. it was great, but not as fun as the old repertoire. but i like it both. kuya homer asked me to take videos for them, so i did. i got to see the concert for free too. and i was sitting by ate love geraldez, we we're like so homesick together, and we we're chatting discreetly while the concert was on going. the usherette approached us, and told us that we're bein noisy. LOL. there's two songs from the repertoire that sticks out as my fave, one day more, from les miserables and galawgaw. carmi was really great.

ok i wanna write more but i have to go for now. im gonna put up pictures next time. i wanna go home and rest. im actually in the library. LOL. so yup, ciao!

quick random post

2008-09-20T13:21:00.002-07:00

quick random post

ok, its sabbath day and im in the library. well, i went to church this morning but i dint get to listen to the sermon, i had to go with my cousin to a catholic church. it was long story. but we did went back to church to talk to pastor arner and we stayed for potluck too. so right now im in the library because my "cousin" meg has to use the internet. she's having tough times right now and its the least i could do to help her.

i also printed some pages from mapquest. i wanna go to andrews tomorrow so i searched for directions. what else, hmm, last night i got to talk to tata, cham and nene. it's gonna be tata's birthday tomorrow, and their concert will be tomorrow too. i hope i could make it. i might ask melissa to come with me. but i havent talked to her yet, so i think there would be less chances that she could come. so yup, thats all for now. this is a random post. lol im not really planning of writing somethin but since im bein bored and im already here, well, why not. so yup. more updates to coem. hopefully^^

offline.

2008-09-19T16:55:00.003-07:00

offline.

we no longer have internet connection and homephone. it got cut off the other day. not a good timing since im on the peak of my enrollment process. i need a lot of paperworks and school credentials to submit and get online. im in the public library right now. finally, more reason to be here. i was always procrastinating of goin to the library. finally i made it happen. yey! hah!

im a bit worried about my enrollment, i hope i could get in to school this term. and also, i hope to get FAFSA too. i cant afford school with or without it. OMGSHH. sometimes i wish i was born rich. LOL. but im just a poor kid, wit big dreams. LOL im bein cheesy =P

what else, hmm, this week has been ok. i had pop and i ate junk food this week. so i guess, that makes me an unhealthy person.

anyways, my time is almost up. til here for now =P

ecstatic.

2008-09-17T18:23:00.010-07:00

ecstatic.

i had only 4 hours of work today and tomorrow is my day off. but i cant go anywhere since im so broke. paycheck comes in friday. so yup, i cant think of anythin fun to do tomorrow. i was supposed to shop but since we had lots of drama last monday, i spent all my money to get a new phone for my brother. long story and its not a touching story. but oh well, its beyond me now. im done with it. i also had to pay for my application fees and other stuff for school. yes im applying for a school. a design school donwtown. i went there last saturday and i dint go to church again. i felt so bad. but it was my only chance. i dunno.

but anyways, i got a call from two of my bestest friends. josh and tata. it was so random, i wasnt expecting any calls from them. but yeah it was all good. and i needed it. im havin a tough week and it feels so great to talk to both of them. the only thing is im tryin to talk to both off them at the same time! LOL. josh on the cellphone and tata on homephone. that was funny. i got in bed at 5:30am. hows that? lol how i miss them so much. me and tata used to stay up late, talkin bout a lot of stuff. it was crazy. same thing with josh too.

im still figuring out how i would get to MI this weekend. i told ate arnie that im not goin anymore but after talkin to tata, my mind has changed a bit. so yup. i dunno what to do. im planning to drive but that would be very risky, well, for me. im not really used to long driving. but we'll see what happens =P

toua

2008-09-17T18:23:00.008-07:00

toua

"...But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother". Proverbs 18:24

yup, that would definitely be josh, or toua. sometimes i do miss my male friends too. lol. especially this guy. he's like a brother to me. one of my greatest friend and best duet partner ever. hah! i miss our tdot days, singing duets, driving a lot, shopping, eating, planning, playing computer games, running, dancing, cooking and experimenting weird food, swimming, goin blonde, bein obsessed wit chozen, laughing, crying, watching a million movies, modelling, and a lot more. *sigh* GOODTIMES!

happy birthday naj, enan and madz

2008-09-08T21:57:00.006-07:00

happy birthday naj, enan and madz

wit madz and naj during my tdot and chozen days

three of my closest friends celebrates their birthday today and yesterday. well, since its already 12-ish i would say that instead of today and tomorrow. LOL. yeah, madz birthday was on the 8th and naj's and enan's is today, the 9th.

naj and madz is also part of chozen. they are the pioneers actually. and they are neighbors too, it was really awesome gettin to meet these girls. tehy are my girlfriends. hah!

enan is my friend since highschool. he's currently somewhere in california right now having a tour with the AUP ambassadors. we also had an acappella group in highschool. i havent seen him in like ages. lol. i might see him soon though, hopefully i'd make it to michigan when they go there this month as part of their US tour.

ruthee turns 15

2008-09-05T20:41:00.005-07:00

ruthee turns 15

today is ruth's birthday. she's like my little sister in tdot. i miss her so much! *sigh*