remorse

i was looking forward this morning to the time that i have to go online and write somethin here. i want to write about the fun times i had so far this weekend. but right now, the excitement died out when me and my brother had an arguement about somethin thats not worth arguing for. he'll turn the smallest problem to somethin big. i dont like his temper. i often lose my patience. but i try to stay calm and say what i mean to say in the best possible way that i can. but it doesnt seem to help, he wont listen still. and that's really frustrating. sometimes i really dont know how to handle him anymore. but he's my brother, and it hurts me to see him this way, but it hurts me too to be treated without any respect. i feel so bad right now. to make it worst, i feel so bad of not picking up auntie maybelle from the train station. she asked me to pick her up at 9pm but for some reason i dint make it. i dont wanna blame her for not calling me, but she said she called home but no one answered. so i think, i should blame myself. im a failure today and i feel so bad about it. she had to walk more than a mile to get back home. i felt really sorry for her. i apologized to her already and she said its ok, but i still feel bad. because i know its not ok. but i cant do anything about it anymore. the last thing i wanna do is to put a person down. if only im a superhero.