partly sober thoughtfulness.


yey! its good to have a day off. well, i did work today but i took off early. and i have 3 days off. thats because i only work part time. i watched TV today. which is very unusual for me. i dont really watch TV here at home. the last time i watched TV for more than an hour was when i was still in tdot. and that's because im always wit friends and they love watchin TV. i only watched one show today though. for some reason, im proud of myself when i do that, i feel so normal. LOL.

i just finished exercising right now. doin that makes me happy. well kind of. studies says exercising produces endorphins and endorpins makes you happy, the term is runner's high. so i feel so high when im workin out. LOL, im bein silly. but yeah, it makes me feel good, especially if i see the changes in my body. but i still have a lot of work to do. but yeah, someday i'll get there.

*sigh*

i think i no longer have the runner's high. LOL. im having mixed feelings right now. part of me is bein unhappy. ive found out that tita onette's offer of sponsoring me to school in manila is no longer valid. she thought i wasnt interested anymore, so she offered it to someone else. i feel so dumb. maybe its not really supposed to be. another thing that depresses me is the thought of my friend ien. we used to be the bestest friend ever. but now, we dont even talk. i saw her friendster profile a while ago and i sent her a message. i hope she'll reply. i have to do somethin about it...

lots of thoughts. i have to stop bein melancholic and be HYPER forever. LOL.


"I am a big believer in the 'mirror test.' All that matters is if you can look in the mirror and honestly tell the person you see there, that you've done your best."
-- John McKay