in deep thought

i woke up early since the Flores' are here. me and linlin did a little photoshoot then we went to royal buffet for lunch. after eating, me linlin and aye went to toys r us. we saw the guitar hero and we started playin. man, how i miss playin it wit my friends back in tdot. so yup, we were just lookin around and takin some photos inside the store. LOL. hmm, after that we went to a pet shop. i was lookin for a small turtle for a pet but they dont have those kind. i was thinking of gettin a fighting fish too. but maybe i'll just get one when i have my own apartment already.

after that we wet back to our place and the Flores had to leave too, coz uncle jojo has to work the next day and they would be still travellin to texas. i wish i could come, i heart long driving! hmm, so yeah, after they left, i was alone at home and i have nothin to do so i just went out and took pictures of myself laying on the grass. i also enjoy bein alone sometimes. it gives me time to think of a lot of things.

i decided to go for a walk around the neighborhood. while walking, thoughts started invading my mind. i was thinking of friends, my chozen family, bleigh and how she inspired me by her photography. i realized that i still love taking photos, and i thought of having my photography business someday. i wanna do fashion photography. or maybe i could shoot weddings too. i dunno. i realized that i could do a lot of things, if i would just stop dreaming and work on it. but what im looking for right now is a job that would keep me busy and would support me and my hobbies. hmm, i'll just take it one step at a time.

OMGSHH, i just realized that its already morning, so technically this blog was for yesterday. LOL.

heres one of the photos i took of linnie:

this is madness.


yup. ive been having job interviews all over the place. well, thats actually good, but i just felt weird bout it. i dont get phoned for an interview usually. so yup. i think its good. and its crazy. LOL.

hmm. this week has been a busy week for me. busy looking for a job, sending in applications everywhere. what else, hmm, i downloaded the photoshop CS3 trial and im havin fun wit it. ive been usin it everyday, doin some old photos. how i wish i could get my own computer soon and download the real thing (not the trial version). so yup. i hope i'll get a job super soon. cant wait. and yeah, i have to start goin to the gym. but i cant do that unless i get a job coz i need money.

right now my head hurts. and also my tummy. i was exercising a while ago while watchin dreamgirls. maybe i drank too much milk. and OMGSH. i lost the DVD remote control. i dunno how i lost it but it mysteriously disappeared. this is really crazy. ive checked everywhere and its no where to be found. so looks like im in trouble. what else... oh yeah, tomorrow is saturday, im goin to church in the morning and hopefully i could go out on saturday night. i wanna see the "dark knight". hah! havent seen it yet. i guess i have to watch it myself since i have no one to watch it wit. ive posted ads asking if there would be someone willin to watch the movie wit me. but no response. so anyways who cares, i'll just watch it myself. lol. so yeah i think thats all for now. ^^

new look!






my hair is shorter, brighter, blonder. i chopped off my bangs, i used to have super long bangs but i dunno what got into me so i cut it. i felt bad after doin it but now i love my new look. i also dyed my hair dark blonde. since i have blond streaks already, it became blonder. hmm, but i might go for bleachblonde soon. ^^

back in chicago


this is my fourth day bein back in chicago. it feels weird to be back here, i call this my home, but i dont feel at home at all. hmm, maybe because i was gone for a long time. im still tryin to get a job. ive been sending applications everywhere since i got here. but no ones giving me a call yet. but oh well, i just have to be patient.

my head hurts so bad right now, and im back to having allergies. i think im allergic to our basement. i had to take medications and use eyedrops everyday, this is really annoying me. and speaking of annoying, im back to bein stuck wit my brother. yeah, he annoys me a lot but i think thats just how we are. we annoy each other so much. but i love my brother. he just gets on my nerves most of the time.

im homesick. how i wish im back in toronto right now. i miss my friends, especially the CHOZEN family. they are my family. now, im back to reality. time to face the unknown again. but thats life. i have to learn that nothin is permanent; good, bad, happy or sad, all things comes to an end.

CHOZEN






if there's one thing that im most proud of, that would be my group CHOZEN. this is the group that ive always wanted, a dream come true. i've learned a lot from this group. it has also become my family.

its just sad that i have to say goodbye for now, but this is just temporary. i know that we will sing together again someday soon. God will make a way. i know that He brought us together for a reason.

summerstorm



i dint abandon my blog, i just dont have time to update. been busy doin stuffs wit friends. im still in tdot, enjoying my last crazy, lazy days wit good friends. *sigh*

just some updates, i cut my hair short. finally, after 2 years, no more mullet. its summer anyways and i wanna try somethin new. hmm what else... ive been to niagara already. thanks to my good friend josh. and oh yeah, last month was graduation month, four of my "CHOZEN" friends graduated, josh graduated from university, naj and bleigh from highschool, and ruth graduated in elementary. so yup, lots of parties too! hah!

what else... oh yeah, CANADA day! my first time "celebrating" it. i went to the beach wit the rest of the gang. it was tiring and fun at the same time. it was also one of my long walks ever, we walked from woodbine to eaton center. i had so much fun. im so tan now. and im lovin it. anyways, more post to come, hopefully =]


















til here for now =P