back in chi-town


yup. im back, and this is really depressing. no one picked me up from the train station. so i just walked, good thing it wasnt that called. i later found out that my dad is still in the hospital. i went there and i get to see my stepmom too.

i dunno, part of me wants to go back to toronto now. maybe im just feelin selfish. i just feel so depressed right now. i miss my friends. and its just weird. *sigh*

right now im just listening to my CD's that i left here. but i dunno, i just feel bad for my family, im sad because i feel so selfish. i was having fun in canada while they're here having lots of problems. i dunno what to do. i dunno if goin back to canada is a selfish act. but i really have to. coz i have the tickets already. but i might also have problems at the US-Canadian border. *sigh*

anyways, this is just my first day here again. maybe i'll be alright. i wanna be alright...