alien

today was my first time to drive after a long time. i used to be the only one driving it, but now i think its my bro's car already. it looks crappy now since the door has been hit by another car. well not my fault. but anyways, i also noticed few changes here in the house. i kinda felt bad coz it seems that my bro took all of my responsibilities. but in someway, it made my bro a bit more responsible and mature.

last night, me and my siblings went driving, well we're actually taking my sis to school for her basketball game. it was my bro who drove. i was seating at the backseat. i felt like theyre not use having me around anymore, i felt invisible, but thats ok. hah! they use to really bug me, especially Ally, my sisturr, she always wanted me to drive her to the mall... sometimes it annoys me. now, she bugs my bro instead. hmm what else... i also noticed that my ally is wearin make up now. she also wanted to have her ears pierced. but yup, we're not allowed to do that. and she swears a lot now. i used to be so annoyed whenever she's calling my bro names, but i dunno, i think thats how they are to each other.

OMGSHH. this is weird. im like an alien from another planet. i also went to the mall today, i was tryin to look for a job. well actually i was also in the mall last night wit my bro, we went there after we dropped of ally. i took some job applications and brought it home to be filled up. im tryin to get a job in aeropostale or urban outfitters. its really weird for me applying in aeropostale since i dont really wear that brand so much. its nice but not really my style. i remember the sales associate asking me why i wanted to work there, and where do i usually shop. he also sorta "mad-dogged" me, he looked at me from head to toe, maybe he was checkin out my personal style. OMGSHH i think that was funny since i was wearin skinny jeans, statement tee and chucks. i was thinking that maybe i should have worn preppy clothes. hah! oh well... who cares.

i hope i would be considered for an interview at urban outfitters. its more my style and the interior and everything in that store is uber awesome like whoa. and i like it more now than H&M. urban outfitters has more vintage-ish and funky stuff and more choices than H&M. oops. well just my opinion. and im also tryin to stop comparing. but i still love them both. i also love the value village(second hand store in canada) and the philippines' ukay. hah! oh this is gettin random. btw, im not high.

btw, i still wanted to be a restaurant server. but whatever.

OMGSHHH this is one of my longest entry i think. hah! while i was driving home, i got a lot of honks. so that might mean im a stupid driver. well not really, i dunno, maybe its because i havent driven for a long time so i kinda forget some of the rules and ignored some of the signs. hah! but it doesnt mean im goin to hell right? so yup. im still confused of what to do wit my life. i feel so numb, i dont even know what i want. i still have to go back to canada though. and hopefully i can go back to manila THIS YEAR. OMGSHH. but, i dunno. whatever works.

so the bottomline of this post is sometimes, changes can make you feel like an alien. ?!?!?. now that's randumb.