friday randomness


thinkin whether to get a haircut or not


its friday again. this week is uber boring. dint go out much, except for the VOZ rehearsal. the weather is bad and im "grounded". OMGSHHH how's that for a 22 year old. *sigh* so what else is new? hmm. oh yeah, finally, a new haircut. i got it last night, i went to this korean salon. i kept the length of my hair though, just had it trimmed and made it thinner. I LOVE IT!!!! omgshh. i love asian mullet. hah!

so i was supposed to go to josh's today to get my suit, but it wont stop snowing. ARRGGGGGGHH. i'll prollie just go there early in the morning, before our call time. we are singin at willowdale church with the Testimony Choir.

what else. sometimes im wonderin whether i look cheap, stupid or i look like a prostitute or whatever. i dont want anymore random guys approaching me to have lunch/dinner wit them, or a coffee, or to give me a ride. maybe asian boys are just a hit for old white guys.

im so bored. im craving for cheesecake. im not alone, but im lonely. i want to get highlights for my hair. i might go to california soon. this is so random. i am random.

eff pinoy pride.


this is a MAD post about annoying, boastful, ignorant, proud, racist filipinos in youtube who floods videos wit "pinoy pride" comments.

comments for ramielle malubay-american idol:

"i believe that all filipinos in the US should support ramiele so that the world could see what filipinos are made of. long live the Philippines "

"Proudly Pinay!!! Go Ramiele! "

"i watched it in QTV here in Phils. Most of the girls are really good. Come back here in the Philippines and be a singing goddess:) God bless you! Makes me proud to be Pinoy! "

"congratulation girl i am really proud to a filipina like you.
Thanks for applauding this video i see my kababayan.
American idol in UK is to late to broadcast "

comments for charice pempengco on ellen degeneres:

"FILIPINOs are the best singers, arent they?? "

"u really make us proud charice being a filipino! keeep up the good work! "

"MABUHAY PILIPINO!!! =] azn pride!! "

"go Charice!!!!!!!!!!!! you have showned that Filipinos really are great!!!!!!!! go Charice keep shining you're really GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "

"Filipino Pride, yo
im proud to be pinoy.
she is such an amazing little singer "

"ooh lordy...i get goosebumps every single time i listen to her

PROUD TO BE FILIPINO!!! haha, good luck Charice!!! "

"filipinos can sanggggggggg.. let me tell you, if you dont know now you know.. she is totally taking control of the show.. i luv it.. the mic toss, etc.., she's also doing her little neck rolls.. there ya go gyrl.. luv the sassyness soulful performance.. She's not copying but is genuine..She gets an A+ in my book "


these comments are just not that extreme yet. watch youtube to find out more. check out comments bout melissa reyes' too, of the search for the next pussycat doll, or marielle, the pinay on dance war. ive also seen videos where pinoys or half pinoy hollywood celebrities are bein featured. its like a photo slide shows of them. it includes enrique iglesias, nicole of pussycat dolls and other "pinoys". what's funny is some of the people bein featured doesnt really admit that they have filipino blood in them. or they even deny bein filipinos. so why do we have to be "proud" of them.

i think that's really annoying. and embarassing, especially for filipinos living abroad. why do those filipino always have to compare pinoy talents with other international artist? sometimes they even make videos comparing two singers. so far, filipinos are the only nationality i know who does this kind of stuff. why do they always have to take credit for some fil-ams achievements? "PINOY PRIDE"? whats that? that's BS. sorry.

im not really good in expressing myself but what im tryin to say is, why does some pinoys have to be so oblivious in posting these kind of comments? arent they aware that people around the world are reading it? its embarrasing, other nationalities dont do that. its good to be proud but we dont need to put down other people, or other nationalities.

what happened this week.


this week was crazy. well not that crazy. or myabe im the one who is crazy. crazy for hairspray the movie. hah! this is so randumb. and yeah, once again, im not high. maybe i need to go back to school and learn journalism. i dunno how to write now. OMGSH. thats not good. anyways, this is how my week went.

monday:
it was a holiday, family day here in canada, president's day in the US. no school for julio. i went downtown and tried to find urban outfitters. i went to meet trevor somewhere and spent the night in his place. we watched hairpsray. it was also awesome to know that that movie was film in trevor's neighborhood. he gave me a tour and showed me some buildings that was shown in the movie. it was crazy hangin out wit him. we had pizza early in the morning. early, as in 1 am. we had to order it online. and have it delivered. then it was snowing so bad. i hate it.

tuesday:
went home from trevor's. dropped off julio to school. slept. then picked up julio at 3:15pm. took a shower and go to naj's place to rehearse the song we're singin for church. we watched american idol first. then we're tryin to harmonize "you raise me up" by groban. auntie onette (naj and kuya bong's mom) thinks it's very contemporary and dint really like it. she said, its sounded like we're entertaining people. church music should be solemn and uplifting. so yup, had to do another piece. got home LATE again. they gave me a ride though.

wednesday:
same routine. went to naj's house again at lunch time. rehearsed wit josh and kuya bong. after rehearsal, me and josh went to my place, chilled a lil bit and rehearse our duet again. we picked up julio too. he had a lil taste of my daily life. hah! in the afternoon, josh dad picked us up for dinner. we ate somewhere. they invited me to sleepover and watch movies. so yup, i slept over again. i had to use josh's clothes. i had to use his skimpy lookin boxers. like its summer. bwahhaha. we slept in the living room and watched some telenovelas from TFC. OMGSHH. hows that for a male bonding? hehe. we also had some guy talk. and i thought it was stupid. coz we talked about non sense things. well not really non sense. boy stuffs and facts of life. like what we do in highschool. or in puberty. ?!?!?!

thursday:
same thing. in the evening i rehearsed wit my singing group. the VOZ. after VOZ, i went to josh's again. we had to drive his dad the next morning (today) to the airporrt. he's goin to philippines. im so jealous. we watched some telenovelas AGAIN. bwhaha. and we realized that its already 2am and we had to wake up at 5am. so yup, we're sleep deprived.

today:
went to the airport. then we drove josh mom to her work. then he drove me home. and i dropped of julio and picked him up. and also asaph too. these kids are drivin me crazy. they love to walk on puddles. my poor vans. its all muddy. then right now, josh gave me a call. he's pickin me up again later and we're goin to pick up his mom and we'll go straight to naj's to rehearse. so yup. i have to go now and prepare. bsuy eh?? hah!

hah! yup, i do love hairspray, both the movie and the one you spray on your hair. finally i get to watch the movie last monday at trevor's place. it was also awesome to know that the movie "hairspray" was filmed around his neighborhood. trevor took me to a "tour" and showed me some of the buildings shown in the movie. the dress shop in the movie was a actually a restaurant. the movie was really awesome and its somethin that i wanna watch over and over again. OMGSHHH i wanna be in broadway. i just wanna be part of the chorus. since im asian, i think that's the only part i could get. hah! well, unless im really good.

change topic.

hmmm what else... this week is sleepover week for me. on tuesday night i was at naj's. last night i was at josh's, we we're tryin to learn some songs. we'll be singing a duet this saturday at church. hmm i think thats it for now. hah!

seems quiet.



i had an interview today at urban outfitters. it was a panel interview actually. i think the manageres were cool, they are very friendly and not the intimidating type. anyways, the interview was done in a very casual way, all of us were sitting on the couch in the middle of the store. i was seated by the female product manager. she was really nice. she was taking notes of everything, including her observations. i knew it coz i actually can see what she's writing but i try not to look at it. i kinda read some and i saw what she wrote under my name. "seems quiet".

so yup, i think thats a negative comment. well, i think i am really quiet, and it takes me a while to warm up wit some people. but i thought i wasnt really quiet that time. its just that im the type who just answers the question bein ask, i dont like elaborating things. "isang tanong, isang sagot"in filipino. my fellow "contestants" (hah, i call them contestants)are really good conversationalist. i wasnt intimidated, and i think they are cool. but anyways, it was a good interview. all i can do now is wait for the results. but its ok if i wont get accepted. i did my best and that's all that matters to me now.

anyways, right now im just killing time. im actually goin to canada at midnight. hah! this is so weird. its my choice though, i have an open ticket and i wanna use it now. but i wont stay long though. i just have some unfinished business in canada and i wanna do it as soon as possible. i wanna be here in chicago this march for my sister's 13th birthday and also for my audition. but if ever the urban outfitters calls me, then i have to go back. so yup thats all for now. OMGSHH tomorrow is valentines day....

alien

today was my first time to drive after a long time. i used to be the only one driving it, but now i think its my bro's car already. it looks crappy now since the door has been hit by another car. well not my fault. but anyways, i also noticed few changes here in the house. i kinda felt bad coz it seems that my bro took all of my responsibilities. but in someway, it made my bro a bit more responsible and mature.

last night, me and my siblings went driving, well we're actually taking my sis to school for her basketball game. it was my bro who drove. i was seating at the backseat. i felt like theyre not use having me around anymore, i felt invisible, but thats ok. hah! they use to really bug me, especially Ally, my sisturr, she always wanted me to drive her to the mall... sometimes it annoys me. now, she bugs my bro instead. hmm what else... i also noticed that my ally is wearin make up now. she also wanted to have her ears pierced. but yup, we're not allowed to do that. and she swears a lot now. i used to be so annoyed whenever she's calling my bro names, but i dunno, i think thats how they are to each other.

OMGSHH. this is weird. im like an alien from another planet. i also went to the mall today, i was tryin to look for a job. well actually i was also in the mall last night wit my bro, we went there after we dropped of ally. i took some job applications and brought it home to be filled up. im tryin to get a job in aeropostale or urban outfitters. its really weird for me applying in aeropostale since i dont really wear that brand so much. its nice but not really my style. i remember the sales associate asking me why i wanted to work there, and where do i usually shop. he also sorta "mad-dogged" me, he looked at me from head to toe, maybe he was checkin out my personal style. OMGSHH i think that was funny since i was wearin skinny jeans, statement tee and chucks. i was thinking that maybe i should have worn preppy clothes. hah! oh well... who cares.

i hope i would be considered for an interview at urban outfitters. its more my style and the interior and everything in that store is uber awesome like whoa. and i like it more now than H&M. urban outfitters has more vintage-ish and funky stuff and more choices than H&M. oops. well just my opinion. and im also tryin to stop comparing. but i still love them both. i also love the value village(second hand store in canada) and the philippines' ukay. hah! oh this is gettin random. btw, im not high.

btw, i still wanted to be a restaurant server. but whatever.

OMGSHHH this is one of my longest entry i think. hah! while i was driving home, i got a lot of honks. so that might mean im a stupid driver. well not really, i dunno, maybe its because i havent driven for a long time so i kinda forget some of the rules and ignored some of the signs. hah! but it doesnt mean im goin to hell right? so yup. im still confused of what to do wit my life. i feel so numb, i dont even know what i want. i still have to go back to canada though. and hopefully i can go back to manila THIS YEAR. OMGSHH. but, i dunno. whatever works.

so the bottomline of this post is sometimes, changes can make you feel like an alien. ?!?!?. now that's randumb.

back in chi-town


yup. im back, and this is really depressing. no one picked me up from the train station. so i just walked, good thing it wasnt that called. i later found out that my dad is still in the hospital. i went there and i get to see my stepmom too.

i dunno, part of me wants to go back to toronto now. maybe im just feelin selfish. i just feel so depressed right now. i miss my friends. and its just weird. *sigh*

right now im just listening to my CD's that i left here. but i dunno, i just feel bad for my family, im sad because i feel so selfish. i was having fun in canada while they're here having lots of problems. i dunno what to do. i dunno if goin back to canada is a selfish act. but i really have to. coz i have the tickets already. but i might also have problems at the US-Canadian border. *sigh*

anyways, this is just my first day here again. maybe i'll be alright. i wanna be alright...