confused.



bought some CD's today. my tita gave me money and i was supposed to go to the mall, but i end up goin to the plaza instead. i felt lazy to commute. i just wanna go out and have some time alone, doesnt matter where. i was feeling frustrated and down. im not sure why, i think im missin someone, but its really complicated. why would i miss someone i dont know so much. this has to stop. or i might end up bein miserable again. ive been there and i dont wanna be there again, its not a good feeling. so yup, the CD's that i bought were easy listening ones. one is inspirational piano music and the other one is african music. i was listening to the piano one a while ago and i tried to play my violin, following the music. Thank God for music. its like a refuge to me.

*sigh*
im still confuse on what i feel. part of me feels like im bein taken for granted, part of me is feeling guilty.