people. kind.


i recieved $20 from a friend today. and it's kinda weird. i think i almost had a hundred bucks given by people i dunno much. of course part of me is happy for recieving money, but part of me is also a big question mark. im not sure what's the reason why i am recieving money. sometimes i just think of it as a blessing. but i dunno, i just feel like i dont really deserve it.

so yeah, that thought has been lingering my mind for a while. sometimes i just want to tell them to stop giving me money, for some reason i kinda feel bad. sometimes i do have doubts. or maybe im just bein paranoid. but anyways, maybe it's God's way of helping me. since i really dont have a job right now. im basically a bum.

*sigh* seriuosly, im not sure of what to do with my life yet. anyways, thanks for the money.