친구 좋은 ~ friend. good.


i failed to update my blog yesterday. i dint really feel like writing. prollie coz there's somethin in my mind that bothers me. i dunno, im still tryin to analyze how i really feel. i feel like im expecting for something to happen. part of me also wanted to open up to this person but somethin inside me is backing out. but as my friend johanne wrote on her myspace, "never expect, never assume, never demand". which is true, i think. it's better that finding yourself broken hearted. i may sound pathetic, coz i think i really am pathetic right now. i feel alienated actually. im longing for my friends, i wanna be surrounded by them. i need someone to tell me that everythings gonna be fine. im almost lost, again. but i can still handle it. im tryin to avoid any potential heartbreak. *sigh* so bottomline, i have insecurities. i wanted to cry and release whatever that feeling inside me. i just wanna be the same old, happy me.

thank God, He sent me somethin to brighten up my day. i checked my mail, after like a million years today and i found somethin really good, which was sent last monday. it was from my long lost friend, Areum Kim. i suddenly brigtened up. NOTHIN BEATS GOOD OLD FRIENDS! she sent me a snapshot too.


김 ~ 아름다움


Hey! How are you doing?
Remember me? It's me Kim areum.. Karen...
I don't know what name you remember me with.
I met Iris Yesterday~
I really miss you.. and Philippines.
It's freezing here. And I hate snow......
Sometimes I wanna go back there and I feel awful for knowing that i can't..
I have no idea which e-mail ad's the right one.
I'll send you my recent picture.
I have my new glasses..
but most of times I use my contact lenses.
I curled my hair.
and I gain weight.. few pounds.
hahaha~~ I hope you are doing fine too..
hope you'd have a fine day..
and for me to have your right e-mail ad.
and to receive a reply... haha *^^* ~~¡Ù


i met Areum way back in highschool, i was a year ahead of her but we became really close when we joined a string ensemble, she plays the violin. she has like three english name, the first one is Fanny, then Car, then Karen. i call her areum, which means "beauty" in korean. (i guess) hah! we also did a lot of duets in school and church programs. it was fun having her around, always there to help me out wit my projects. i used to go to her place and use her computer. which is a bit complicated since it's in korean! she used to bring be some kimbab and other korean stuffs every rehearsal. OMGSHH i miss her so much! i miss picking her up and dropping her off to her place after rehearsals. some highschoolers thought we were an item. hah! she's pretty though. i met her mom already and she was so nice to me. areum introduced me as her besfriend. she's really sweet but can be very tough. i remember her doing taekwondo on me, after teasing her so bad. i hurts so bad, i actually got so mad too! hah! GOODTIMES!

i hope to see you again areum, we have a lot to catch up. ^_*


find me and areum here!

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